In the Waiting Line

I decided to forego the continuation of my continuing discussion of Healing and the Holographic Principle for a few more days, simply because of a song.

It's a really good song, though. I guess it better be to pull me off a heady topic like explaining trans-psychophysiology (or attempting to begin to try to perhaps explain my little brain's perception of it, anyway...). It's one of those songs that'll turn your head 'round when heard for the first time. It grabbed me and hasn't let go yet. You just gotta ask why these things happen sometimes.

The song I'm talking about is In the Waiting Line by Zero 7.

Why is this song, out of the 5800 on my MP3 player, getting my attention now? Well, it's got a good beat, and you can dance to it... But seriously, it's the amalgamation of the lyrics and chords and camber of the song that are doing it. A couple of weeks ago, it didn't do much for me other than get my fingers a' snappin'. Now it has a deeper meaning that speaks to the human experience.

I was working with a client a few weeks ago, and kept getting the feeling that I was waiting for something. I couldn't quite put my finger on what I was waiting for, but I felt like I was absolutely waiting for something, almost to the point of suffering acute anxiety. And this was certainly psychic information, not "me" information. So, I relayed the feeling.

She responded immediately; the heartfelt words flowed like they'd been waiting years to be released. "Yes," she said. "I'm waiting to feel like I belong to something in life. I'm waiting to be loved. I'm waiting to feel passion--about anything--in my life. I'm waiting to feel like life's not passing me by." The ache in her voice and in the lines on her face spoke the volumes of pain and alienation she'd been feeling.

Some words from the Zero 7 song popped into my head at that moment:

Nine to five
Living lies
Everyday
Stealing time
Everyone's taking everything they can

That thought spawned a lengthy discussion about job vs. vocation and finding that irresistible urge--that overarching Life's Work--which can so effectively elude our best efforts at identification, especially when we're looking for something unanticipated. It turned out to be a powerful conversation.

After the session, as I was driving home, I reflected on the session and the time my client spent waiting. I thought about how many of us give others the power to affect our desired outcomes and, as a result, our happiness. Then, waiting (naturally!) for the light to turn green and then again at the car wash, I realized that there are many types of waiting; there is the powerful form of waiting for an opportunity, and then there's the relatively powerless form: waiting for an action. Let me explain.

When we're waiting for an opportunity, it's like we're coiled and ready to spring--all we need is the opportune moment to make the call, sell the stock, discuss the change, ask for the raise, buy the house, etc., etc. We are taking the initiative to act when instructed by circumstance. It's a fluid way to wait, I think. We continually assess situations and remain open to all possibilities while searching for opportunity, for we usually don't know what specific opportunities looks like. They come in many forms! This is a powerful and proactive way to wait, in my opinion.

However, when we're waiting for an action, we're looking for something specific, like a time, or a comment, or a facial expression, or some other desired threshold. Many times, the format of this thing for which we wait was constructed by our affected mentality; it's been shaped by our little prejudices, our (sometimes not little) ego, our desires, our other Earthly concerns. In a more defined linear, sequential, or cause-and-effect scenario, this mode of waiting is certainly warranted, as in software development, where sequential logic is the lifeblood. What happens, though, when we're waiting for our ship to come in, but opportunity decides to walk up to our front door? We don't recognize the knock for what it is, and we can miss out. Sometimes painfully so.

I contemplated these differences for a while while motoring back home, and tried to find a common thread; some way to boil this down and better understand it. It's taken a few weeks (I'm sometimes pretty slow...), in fact.

What I found is that the important distinction between the two types of waiting, and also between opportunities taken and opportunities missed is intent.

Skeptics come with the territory when you're "out there" as a psychic. Now, I probably don't have to tell you that I'm pretty skeptical of much of the information I'm given. I always seek corroboration, and many times more than one form of it. But I think I'm also pretty open to this corroboration in whatever form it takes. I ask for it, and then accept it as it comes. And it certainly does come.

There are some skeptical persons out there who don't accept corroboration unless it fits their definitions, sometimes because their intent is, at the heart of it, to not accept what is being shown to them. Professional skeptics fit this model, I think. Their modality is the stringent and repeated denial of miracles. Miracles put them right out of business, so to speak, so they intend on always finding a way to discount or to disprove.

On the other hand, allowing healthy skepticism to be assuaged by openness and observation can lead to miracles. Especially when the intent is to ask, verify, and receive all within reasonable expectations.

One of my clients received an amazing reading a few weeks ago. A relative of hers came though with empowering and accurate information that I found just wonderful. Big "life" details, little personal details... It was all right on. I was all tingly! After the session, though, my client looked a little down in the dumps. "Is something wrong?" I asked.

"I still don't quite believe in the Other Side," she mumbled. "This just didn't do it for me."

My jaw fell. "Really? The information seemed really accurate and had a powerful and timely message for you and where you are in your life," I said. "Tell me more."

"Well..." she sighed after a little pause. "I told my mother that she needed to come through with some specific bits of information in order for me to believe. I have a bunch of people that are counting on me to get this information so they believe, too. But it didn't happen. She didn't come through for me..." Tears welled in her eyes.

I want all of us to believe in the majesty of the "normal paranormal" in this life. That's why I do this work! So while I really felt for my client and her desires, I was more than a bit crestfallen that she had so easily passed over the verification and integration her uncle had lovingly brought forth in order to stick to her constructed preconception. This majesty was partially lost because of the script she expected to hear.

This, I think, was an example of waiting for an action, and not looking for an opportunity. While waiting for a specific action (or piece of information from the Other Side, in this example), opportunity's insistent knocking was dampened.

Which brings me right to another verse of the Zero 7 song (interesting how that circle fills itself, eh?):

Do you believe
In what you see

It is my rooted belief that, in order to see the miraculous, each of us must ask to see the miraculous. But it's not just that. After we ask to see it, we need to look for and accept the way in which it's presented to us. Even if it's in a way that we're not expecting.

Try it. Then send me an email. Let me know how the miraculous is shaping your life!

I wish for you a short and fruitful wait.